I have a defense team , did you know that ?
Every lie you tell they add a brick.
Brick by invisible brick.
It’s quite clever you see.
But that’s the point ..you can’t.
They’re your legacy.
Soon your lips will pucker to reach mine
And Bam. Ouch.What’s that ?
How do you not recognise your own creation ?
You seem smaller to me today.
But I stand tall
Protected by this invisible wall.
I’m not special
I’m just a cushion for you to rest your head.
When I go..I’m dead,
Or as good as.
Oh lonely boy.
You always need to fill the gaps
You’re afraid of your own thoughts.
Sitting alone is not an option for you.
I know it.
I am the same.
But the difference with this soul
Is self control.
I fill the void with other things
Things that won’t hurt you if you find out.
So lonely boy , what’s it going to be ?
Rest for a while on my breast then move on to the next ?
Or are you finally ready to call me home ?
Deal with your demons, I can see them lurking in corners
They play with mine.
But memories are just smoke
And if you breathe out
You can blow them away.
I can’t hope to catch the stars
Their jagged edges would cut through my net
And then what ?
To have but for a moment
But then for it to go?
How could my feet touch soil
My hands and body toil
Day after mutinous day
When my light had gone away?
I won’t lie in the gutter and look at the stars
I will hold the moon
Swing like a baboon.
I will not search for heaven on earth
Magic ends at birth
I will strap myself to comet
Whirl and soar and bathe in whispy galaxy
I will be part of the dream
Rather than the sleep
I will become the starlight
While you below shall weep.
You met your match, you lit the light
And you didn’t think I shone so bright
So you played me like a cat plays with a mouse
You spat at my house
You thought I had no idea
Your old methods worked before
But I’m not humble brother
I’m not stupid mother
You knocked on the wrong door.
My brain forms connections while yours lies dormant
I know a serpent when I get bitten once
But I’m the charmer
If you need to stick your dick
In other doors ,
Then do it silly
But your balls will get chilly
I’m not the jealous kind
I think you want me to mind.
I think your lies are how you try to control me.
Make me think I’m crazy.
Crazy girl. Crazy girl.
Lucky for me, I know I’m Loco.
But not for you and never because.
Oh there now. Don’t cry those crocodile tears my dear.
It’s ok to be caught out by someone like me.
I’m clever you see ? Not the fool you hoped I’d be.
So do stop your lying
It’s ever so trying.
Kinda boring if I’m honest
You’re turning me off.
Soon there will be no electricity
Just gas light.
You don’t belong on golden sands
Smiling into the sunset.
You have miles to go on rocky roads
On paths cemented with lies
Disheveled bits of all the hearts you chewed and then spat out
Do you really think the sun will set on your behaviour and rise on your command?
Do you really think you can burn the hand that holds your head on her lap
And ever go back ?
You don’t belong on beaches
In blue waters
With anyone’s daughters.
So stay on rougher ground
Be a hog and sink in mud
Because golden sands are made for the good.
Can I offer you a coffin ?
There was nothing but sincerity in his tone.
‘I’m not quite ready for that ‘ I laughed
‘Oh but you are’. He said
You are already dead.
Dead ? What did he mean ?
I looked down at my hands
And saw nothing but bones
No smooth flesh no veins.
I was skeleton from tarsals to top.
Poor corpse. Poor corpse.
Running around pretending to be alive.
‘I ..I thought I had this covered, I didn’t think they knew.’
‘No my dear, it’s obvious you’re a corpse right through and through.’
I thought love was give and take.
Either way, parts being lost and handed over.
More and less.
But suddenly I knew it shouldn’t
It ought to be teach and learn
No yank or burn.
Both gaining without taking
Solving without dissolving.
I now know what love is.
It wasn’t us. Not for years
We lived on pulling and pushing tears.
And the hardest part is not losing each other
But winning the battle.