I just wanted to take his little hand and run.
Jump on a bus and go on an adventure.
He didn’t want to go to school and little sobs racked his big soul.
His quivering lips , his wet eyes.
I wasn’t ready for such goodbyes.
All I could think was that:
His whole life would be filled with timetables.
He wouldn’t be able to run away.
So why not today son?Why the hell not.
Let’s run while we still can.
While it’s still fun
Because someday you won’t have your mum.
Someday you’ll be in a suit and tie
With no one at the gate to wave goodbye
And when I die you can reveal my name
And they’ll say: “I didn’t realise she was so sad.”
But aren’t we all?
(Some more than most)
Your persistence paid off…
I love you.
Yep that’s it. I do.
You are human after all.
And that is my only requirement.
A semi-decent human and I’ll be yours forever.
That’s why I don’t allow myself to go so easy.
There isn’t enough of me to divide out with you all.
That’s why it took so long.
But once you chip away the shell
I’m all soft inside.
I’m like slime in those kids toys.
Throw me around and I’ll stick to the wall
I’ll stick to you all.
So be careful.
Once I’m covered in fluff
You’ll have enough
You’re missing a ‘W’ in everything you do
Ork, ant, ill
I can never be your ‘ife’
With just a tinkle in your life.
There’s torment in the pit of me
And this tight ball of fear won’t disappear
I sit, consumed with worry
I can’t quite get a grip
These thoughts that dangle from my brain
Are covered in spiders.
Yesterday I bounced on land
Now I sink into quicksand
Is anyone else the same?
Or am I all alone in this video game?
The doctor dismissed me by being gruff
Doesn’t he know I’ve had enough?
Nothing again will fill me with cheer.
I have nothing to worry about
But everything to fear
I’m in a self-induced coma
I can’t cope with this life
So I’ll shut it out for now
Stop paying attention
Turn off the TV
Smother the radio
Try to find joy inside
Hope that my childish notion of happy endings
Can still come true.
” Stop the world I want to get off?”
Nah… just stop the noise.