I need a new word to explain the pain I feel.
A word just for this
Just for me.
This emotion too unique to share
Needs to find ground in hefty new form
In better letters.
In consonants that won’t devour its whole
In vowels that won’t diminish its goal.
I need a new word. A new world.
Just for me. Just for this.
One that oozes venom
While being laden down with guilt
A word that cries cliches
While standing firm.
A guttural cry. A silent whimper.
A genuine laugh. A weary simper.
Just let me have it, grab it
All to myself.
I will utter it once
Then place it on shelf.