Crazy Lazy

crazy-lazy

Please don’t call me lazy

I know I’ve been on the couch all day

But I have been running around

Lost and never found.

These thoughts of mine are more tiring than you can imagine

They keep me here.

Trapped in fear.

Please don’t call me lazy.

I know I’m not dressed. I know I’m a mess.

Today I am bathed in anxiety and stress.

Putting on clothes for what ? For who ? For you ?

I’m not lazy. I’m not.

I’m in a bad spot.

Where everything I try is just too fucking much.

Where everything I touch

Turns to shit.

Don’t call me lazy.

But do call me crazy.

Because that’s how I feel.

That’s more real.

And although you may not relate

It’s a more honest state.

Crazy is better than lazy

If lazy even exists.

But there is a shimmer. There is a light..

Today I write.

(c) Slumpless

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Haunted

HauntedYou will haunt me forever

For sending me to the brink

For making me think

I was losing my mind

Was I ? Did I ?

I still hold onto your words

Which seem absurd now

Considering this.

Considering, considering

That’s what I do when it comes to you.

I will always look for answers in your silence

It’s not golden

I’m beholden.

Oh I wish I had never started it

But then why do I still look for you ?

(C) Slumpless

Trip-Switch

I tripped over your disapproval today

It was on the floor and in the air

I breathed it in and out

It coated the bones and veins of me

Made me sluggish, afraid to move.

I couldn’t get past it

I couldn’t leave the house

It’s vice like fingers dug into my shoulder

Oh I wish I was bolder.

I wish I could kick instead of trip

(c) Slumpless

 

 

 

Elsewhere

The tip of your tongue

Is moments away from the core of me.

Your warm breath on my inner leg

Radiates inwards, upwards.

Your hand splayed on my stomach

Is all the comfort I will ever need.

All aspects of you are linked to me

In those heady moments.

But I am wrong.

I was wrong.

Your mind was elsewhere.

You are elsewhere.

(c) Slumpless

 

Other

Other

Stay with me

Don’t go back to her

Don’t take your hand from my hip

Your brow from my lip.

Stay all day

Stay forever

Because when you leave

I am other

While now I am it

As your fingers play with my…..

(c) Slumpless

The Workings Of Me

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I felt the cutting in my blood

A little sharp tingling  and suddenly  more

My guts spilled out

All over the floor.

Sharing my innards with the world

Absurd. Absurd. Absurd.

The beautiful skin I’m in… is gone

Now all you can ever see

Are the grimy, slimy, workings of me.

This inexplicable desire to share

Makes me in-human

So please beware.

I will spill my guts on the floor

You’ll want less because I give more.

It doesn’t pour but it will always rain

When you show the world your inner pain.

(c) Slumpless