Mahler was playing.
Suddenly I knew who I was.
I know what you are.
Boy. Forever boy.
I the decrepit voyeur,
Gazing upon your beauty.
Grazing upon your strength.
You will never see me…
We can never be
You will always frolic in the sea.
The sun caressing your golden hair
While I long to be the beams .. the water, the air.
Instead I am beached whale on a deck chair
Life has made its cruel marks on my visage
While your look perfect comme les nuages
You skim through life without a care
Forever young. Forever fair.
Oh silly me. Silly rabbit.
Gorging on you is my ridiculous habit.
I’ve eaten too much I clutch at my chest
The sun is setting
Probably for the best.