Games

So I have two choices

Not sure which to do

Play a game

Or remain true

Treat you mean to keep you here

Or be myself and evoke fear

Will I text you first today?

Is this just a silly game I think we play?

But you play it too, I know you must

I guess I have issues involving trust.

So let’s pause a moment and decide

Do I reveal my love or let it hide

Part of me feels if you really were true

I wouldn’t be sitting here wondering what to do

You used to be eager my dear lover

So this silence thing feels like it’s over.

The key this time is to try and remain

Slightly more normal, a lot less insane.

(C)Slumpless

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Tower

You’re pushing me

One more inch and I’ll be over that wall

Again.

One more pinch

Another layer will form.

So do it if you dare

Turn your back on me

But when you look back

You will see nothing but a tower

And I won’t let down my hair.

(C) Slumpless

I wanted to say I love you

I wanted to say I love you

The words stuck in my craw

Too soon. Too much. Too soon.

The bursting need to utter them

Stutter them.

Stammer. Stammer. Stammer.

The words were a hammer in my soul.

How overwhelming this fire, this desire

I couldn’t lie with you and lie to you

Pretend you are less when you are more

So much more.

How can this be ?

I l ooo…. I can’t. I won’t. I can’t.

So I stare at you in terrible silence

Daring you to say it first

Read my mind, fool!

But you just smile

And I fall deeper.

(C) Slumpless

Hurt Alert

Every aspect of me is sensitive

The rubbing of a sock on my little toe

My innards if I ingest unsuitable morsels

Every speck is on hurt alert

It’s no wonder that

As I tread carefully

Then so must you

Every word you utter or don’t

Every touch you give or withhold

Can be beautiful fire or barbed wire

I’m not in between so please don’t be

Love me gently but with strength behind it

Gentle pressure. No sharp digs.

I’m not saying I’m covered in cotton wool

But I ought to be.

So easy there tiger before you rub

You are all grown but I’m just a cub.

(C) Slumpless

Someone, Like me..

I can’t be anything other than this

Over -think. Over-share. Over myself.

I try you know.

Be better. Be less…. just be

It’s so hard you see

To have a million judges sitting at your mouth

Those gavels bang a steady rhythm in my skin

I just want to crawl out of it

Be a newborn me.

Oh the silliness that I show

Is nothing like me at all

Folly. Fool. Uncool.

This constant compulsion

Of verbal expulsion

Shut. Me. Up.

But sometimes when the light is not too bright

Or the mirror too harsh

I think maybe it’s ok

To be this way

That out there the strong silent type

Is longing to be

Someone like me.

(C) Slumpless

Will we always slither?

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Will we always slither around

Sliding over barren ground?

Will you always tease my skin

Then turn away afraid to sin?

Will I always long for this

Less than a caress more than a hiss?

Will the sun that heats my blood

Heat yours too and make it good?

Will the skin we shed and shake

Make us more human and much less snake.

Will we ever be rid of this terrible curse

Of being unable, to be an ‘Us’.

What hope have we? No matter how hard we try

Our devious ways will make her cry.

(c) Slumpless