Puppy

I have only a puppy heart

Over-eager

Needs a leash.

It jumped on you as soon as it could

And you pet it for a while

Appreciated its effervescent nature

But that was just for Christmas

And now this heart is in the pound.

Pounding. Pounding. Pounding.

Waiting to come home again.

Waiting for you to play ball.

But time has run out

And I have been put down.

(C) Slumpless

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Jane

Her favorite film was ‘Out of Africa’.

Oh?

I had misunderstood her

Her caustic manner

Her cantankerous demeanor

She had frightened me

Once.

But those three words changed all that

Insane Jane was misunderstood

Oh she was still a bitch

I couldn’t escape that fact

But one whose appreciation of subtle longing, a need for belonging

Meant she must be more than just snarl and gnarl

More than the angry sighs her tapping hands evoked

More than an office joke.

There was a pearl in there somewhere

Inside that shell

Within the creature who gave us hell.

(C)Slumpless

Splintering Whispers

There is only silence when we’re together

Beautiful,smooth quietness

In my heart and in my head.

No gaps between us to let echoes bounce and bound.

No slivers of space where splintering whispers can flay my nerves away.

When your skin is on mine

Hush. Hush. Hush.

An occasional hum.

An occasional groan.

But mostly blissful

When we’re alone.

(C) Slumpless

Too close to the night

I wanted to be neat and tidy.

No aches or pains.

Steady as she goes.

I needed to be light and fluffy

A breath of fresh air to replenish your soul.

And I was. For a while.

But like a burning photograph

The edges of me began to singe and smoulder

And slowly but surely I crumpled inwards

My gaping smile, fading… fading until

Puff!

I was no more than smoke

That made you splutter and choke.

I can never be colour.

I will never shine bright

My soul is too close to the surface

Too close to the night.

(C) Slumpless

Good Girl

Was it worth it ?

Heightening your nights

Adding shimmer and shine ?

Were they divine ?

Do you look back now in nostalgic haze

Do you long for those days

That ran into those nights

Like carriages in a crash

Fast, fasterSmash.

I was a good girl

No tabs for me

No artificial highs

No LSD

And sometimes now I wonder

Why the fuck not?

Do I feel any more righteous

Did I escape the rot ?

Are my memories any sharper

My life more on track ?

I feel grey today

But I suppose it could be black.

(C) Slumpless

Let’s take it outside

Let’s go out you said

And we were both afraid

You flinched a little.

Outside was the world

Large and absurd

We had our den

Pizza on the bed, coffee on the floor

A little less, a whole lot more

Twisted in bed sheets and things unsaid

Warm with potential.

Outside there were eyes. Wide and surprised.

My oh my and oh how you lied.

So maybe let’s stay in a while longer

The world can wait until we’re a little bit stronger.

(C) Slumpless

SHRivel

I told you I loved you

While you were still inside me

And I think I felt you shrivel.

Stabbing me with a blunted knife

Oh God the pain.

Why ? Why? Why ?

This compulsion to seek revulsion ?

What do you mean love ?

That’s what you said.

Would the right definition make you say it back ?

It’s too late now. I won’t say it again.

I rolled away from you and left the room. Your house. Your life.

But those pitying eyes … ?

They are all I remember

Of us.

(C) Slumpless