Only smart if you are….I’m not.
I proved that.
I descended into the proverbial rabbit hole
I just couldn’t stop myself. The heat it generated in my skull should keep the battery going for years.
Hours of searching for something I was never even sure existed
By trying to prove to myself I wasn’t crazy … I became just that.
Lock me out. Of it. Of life. Of me.
Off
(C)Slumpless
You fought until the bitter end
I’ll give you that at least
All the proof in front of me
You thought it was behind you.
You were like a cornered bird.
But at least they can fly.
You had nowhere to go
You turned into a festering mass
And I wondered how I ever saw anything else
Where were your soft, gentle hands ?
Where was your kind heart?
One lie down.
How many more ?
(C) Slumpless
I can’t hope to catch the stars
Their jagged edges would cut through my net
And then what ?
To have but for a moment
Shimmering shine.
All mine.
But then for it to go?
How could my feet touch soil
My hands and body toil
Day after mutinous day
When my light had gone away?
I won’t lie in the gutter and look at the stars
I will hold the moon
Swing like a baboon.
I will not search for heaven on earth
Magic ends at birth
I will strap myself to comet
Whirl and soar and bathe in whispy galaxy
I will be part of the dream
Rather than the sleep
I will become the starlight
While you below shall weep.
(C) Slumpless
I’m in a culling mood today
The type where no bullshit is allowed
If you want to be part of my life
Try fucking harder.
If you want respect….
Actually, I thought this was all pretty obvious
Oh well. Time tells.
She told on you and you and you too.
She told on my Mother and Father.
They should have tried bloody harder.
Today I have no patience for a shoulder shrug
I need people who willingly hug.
The kind who wrap me in fuzzy love
The ones who seem to be sent from above.
So today my whip is going to crack
Be a decent person or get the sack.
(C) Slumpless
This is for my best friend who puts her money where her mouth is and shows kindness instead of smugness. You know who you are xxx
I must have met Medusa
For a brief moment.
Enough to turn my heart to stone.
Those snakes in her hair
Each of them with their own wicked agenda
Each the root of the cause
A heart that never thaws.
(C) Slumpless
I took you to the lakes
“Is this it?” You said.
I took you to the hills but you wanted mountains.
To the woods but you wanted jungle.
I gave you my heart. But you took my soul.
My hand, but you grabbed my neck.
My devotion was met with no emotion.
My love hit a brick wall.
I’m learning to avoid the fall.
There are oceans out there for you to paddle
There are forests with trees for you to climb
Why the fuck did you even pick mine?
I hope you find what you seek
But please, please, please!
Don’t prey on the weak.
(C)Slumpless
I didn’t realise it but I was waiting.
Waiting for you to shed that brittle skin
To show me someone better
To prove my doubting wrong.
I tried to shrug away your strange behaviour
Those angry outbursts make me cringe.
I tried to justify your lies
Your sideways glances at other women ?
I held back my whinge.
I kept waiting.
Over and over I gave into you.
Then suddenly oh suddenly I became aware
Of that wonderful feeling of “I don’t care”
PS: The funny thing of being able to post this
Is I know you never check my blog
Because on top of being a moron
You are also a self-centered hog 🐗
(C) Slumpless
You met your match, you lit the light
And you didn’t think I shone so bright
So you played me like a cat plays with a mouse
You spat at my house
You thought I had no idea
Your old methods worked before
But I’m not humble brother
I’m not stupid mother
Naive whore.
You knocked on the wrong door.
My brain forms connections while yours lies dormant
I know a serpent when I get bitten once
But I’m the charmer
Not you.
If you need to stick your dick
In other doors ,
Then do it silly
But your balls will get chilly
I’m not the jealous kind
I think you want me to mind.
I think your lies are how you try to control me.
Make me think I’m crazy.
Crazy girl. Crazy girl.
Lucky for me, I know I’m Loco.
But not for you and never because.
Oh there now. Don’t cry those crocodile tears my dear.
It’s ok to be caught out by someone like me.
I’m clever you see ? Not the fool you hoped I’d be.
So do stop your lying
It’s ever so trying.
Kinda boring if I’m honest
You’re turning me off.
Soon there will be no electricity
Just gas light.
(C)Slumpless
There’s a world down there,unaware.
They build kingdoms and homes
They have lives , they thrive.
They kill ,they eat, they screw
They just do.
Instead of looking up for answers we should look down
The benevolent girl who saves the spider
The scared adult who squashes it with his foot
Sometimes there’s reasoning to what we do.
Sometimes.
All the different layers
To whom should they send their prayers ?
Does the ant even notice me when I walk in his dominion?
Or is the anteater the only thing it sees ?
Too small to understand my ways.
Too different to begin to comprehend.
So when I try to decipher the reasons why
I will no longer look up to the sky
The meaning of life the all knowing and seeing
Is animal, plant and human being.
So I suppose even if it’s raining
I’ll try to make myself entertaining
Who knows somewhere for all I know
I’m appearing on a wildlife show.
(C)Slumpless
I had to be born again today.
Free myself of everything I thought I knew.
The net which I assumed would catch my fall
Was never there at all.
The arms that held me before I knew myself
Have turned to stone
I am well and truly alone.
As I hold my own flesh and blood
I am awake again.
I understand that there are no more excuses for their selfish maybes
I could never do this to my own baby.
Not now , not when he’s grown
I will never leave him on his own.
I guess I have to turn to other
When I can’t rely on my own…
I can’t even say it.
It hurts too much.
I am much too blue
The person I loved
I never knew.
(C) Slumpless
Today I learned what it felt like to be alone.
More alone than someone with no one.
The solitude that stops your heart because every person in your life is not really there at all.
Is this a dream I wonder ?
Did I imagine bridges made of stone when in reality there were was only frayed rope?
No hope.
Hopeless.
13 reasons why ? I give you a million.
Made of shrugs, insincere hugs
Righteousness and pontification
SMUG. SMUG. SMUG.
And yet I suppose it’s better to wake up and see that I’m on the edge of a cliff.
And that I have been for a long time.
What’s keeping me here when the love I thought you all wanted has met nothing but ice.
Not nice. Not nice.
Oh well my dears.
I suppose you will tell yourselves you did your best.
Don’t blame yourself. She wasn’t right in the head.
She’s better off….
Don’t worry I won’t do anything “silly” though
Still it’s good to know
That when I needed my blood
You were all no fucking good.
(C) Slumpless
I brought you stardust.
I went all the way up to the heavens
And gathered it in the palm of my hands.
I fought my way back into your murky atmosphere
Just to get a nod. A pat on the head.
But instead of warm air I got a vacuum
Cold and harsh
You suck the life from me.
How can there be lust
Without a sprinkle of stardust?
(C)Slumpless
