Pinch by pinch

“This too shall pass”
That’s what they say.
But they haven’t felt one of my minutes
Lived in my skin.
What time is it ? Nearly there ?
My life is crawling, sprawling.
Every half breath takes longer than your sighs.
I can’t see the light.
Not when my immersion is absolute.
Sublime darkness some might say…
Not me.
Squid ink in my pores.
I’m suffocating but not because of silence.
Every word you ever uttered is pinned to my every inch.
Pinch. Pinch. Pinch.
I’m edging my way forwards but it hurts like hell.
I’ll never do this again.
I can’t.
(C) Slumpless

Whino

I poured the last shred of myself into getting you back

Dredged the pit and found the last scrap of pride

Withered but worthy of words

Silence. Silence. Silence.

Now I feel absurd.

And I have to question this need for your presence.

This scramble to make you see.

Because when I have you it is not joy in my heart

But fear.

I am always waiting for you to cast your shadow on my face

For you to spit me out without swallowing.

A connoisseur of vintage whines.

Love me. Love me. Love me.

Ughhh I hate myself more than you could.

Better maybe to stay shut up.

Shut me out.

I think I would.

(C)Slumpless

PicASSo

I explained you into something else

How else could I understand you ?

I made excuses for your strange ways

And let the nuances I didn’t understand become mysteries, worthy of my love.

At the end however I realized that you are not an art piece to be deciphered

And that color on a wall does not a picture make.

Your silences are not opportunities for me to read your mind

But chances for blissful peace

So goodbye sunshine. Goodbye rain.

I thought you were a Picasso but you were nothing but a stain.

(C) Slumpless

Trick of the light

A trick of the light silly
When you thought you saw a halo
When you felt the piercing heat, smolder the bones of you.

Oh you knew it even then but you ignored the refracted value of the words that lit up your life.
And then when the clouds came
You feigned surprise as though you had forgotten your jacket not cast it aside.

Silly girl.

I see goosebumps on your arms and shadows in your hair.

No it’s not fair.

Some can bend the rays to their own devices

While you are left in cold,cold slices.

Ham it up all you want.

Pretend you got a fright.

You knew it all along

The tricks of your delight.

(C) Slumpless

Stop

Stop. I need to stop.

When my heart steals away in the night

Time travelling back to your hands in my hair

Stop.

I need to quench this thirst for memories

I am laden down with heavy baskets full of the past.

How can I move when every finger is weighed down?

I trudge through the days without you.

And I think I must have seen myself back then when you held me in the night.

I’m pretty sure it was me , sitting in corner looking sad.

Stop.

But how do I do it ?

Learn, when all I do is yearn ?

Smile without wincing?

Is there a potion made to numb ?

Now I understand gin.

You win.

I’m glass and always was and you’re the stone that landed in this vessel.

Tomorrow is another day..

Without you.

(C) Slumpless

I Do Believe in Fairies

Do you believe in Fairies ?

Don’t laugh just think.

Do you believe in stories with no proof?

Stories to make you feel better. Stories to shut you up.

You might as well.

I always thought that if I loved hard enough magic would happen.

That you would return the favor.

Oh Disney and Hollywood

All those stories that make you feel good.

I grew up on those, made wishes to the skies

But I may have found out about Santa

But not the rest of those lies.

(C) Slumpless

Parasite love

You spoke to the raw, ticking part of me.

The viscous blood that pools in this turbine head

You saw the graves I dig for myself

And you helped me shovel down

The rain in sheets upon our ravaged backs

As we fought the granite masses of the soil.

Toiling. Soiling. Spoiling.

You and I are boiling oil.

We spill over vestments and scorch the eyes that watch.

I cling to your immortal hold on me

Parasite love. Burrow in deep.

I go on forever.

(C) Slumpless

Crinkle Cut

There is a crinkle in the line of time
Where you were mine.
It goes in loops through space
Over and over through seas of effervescent stars.
A universe kind of love.
A galaxy of heat
But It burns too fast my dear
And that crinkle is now a coil
Waiting for release
So I loosen my grip and watch you float further away from me into the night
And although there is black
There is also the moon and it’s beautiful pull
And that spinning sphere of blue.
There’s me and always you.

(C)Slumpless

Cheap Cheap

You break the heart of me my love

Cut the soul right out of its skin.

Over. Over.And over

I let you do it it.

This pulsing part on a plate

Sloshed about like a cheap stew

Made cheaper by me.

While I yearn for your expensive smile

The one that only comes out at night.

Me ? My teeth are always on display

Night. Day. I just give it away

As if it means nothing.

Talk is cheap but so is a smile.

And mine is free.

(C) Slumpless

Linear Lust

Can I draw the liquid lines of you with my thumbing stroke?

Bleed the sap that I know lingers in the funnel of your heart?

Oh there are ways and means to make your fountain flow

I know most but not all

I will find the waterfall

I strum and hum the tunes that make oblique, the straight lines of your beautiful legs

You beg for more lick and that’s the trick.

Just a breath away.

I’ll stay just a breath away until even a whisper, will send you to simmer

The releasing breaths of a chord too highly strung

Is magic, melody to ears and head that need a patting. A petting.

Wet. Wet. Wetting.

Soak

(C) Slumpless

Cut From The Same Star

I will put holes in your clouds

And trenches in your doubt

Today you will see that I want nothing but you.

You can do as you please

I’m on my knees.

I told you it was forever

But most people don’t mean it my way.

There’s no highway. No wave goodbye.

I am the air you cannot see

The dust that settles lightly on your shoes

Use. Use. Used.

I’m used to it.

So run and push.

There’s nowhere for you to go.

I am sand and snow.

Tree, bird, mamal, fish

Do as you wish.

My love will not be killed

Even if my blood is spilled.

I don’t know jealousy

I don’t know hate.

This is what it means to be my soul

Mate.

So cry. Whimper. Laugh

You are half.

I am other.

Souls from the same Mother.

Cut from the same star.

(C)Slumpless

Kitchen

You undo all the things I’ve done

Where I put the kettle.

Where I left the salt.

You move me around like I’m made of nothing

And all I want to do is run.

I don’t think you would notice

Until breakfast time when the coffee doesn’t appear beside your bed.

You rearranged my kitchen.

And now I have nothing.

(C) Slumpless