Bigger Me

Where do I draw the line ?

When does being the bigger person, make you feel small ?

Another apology on righteous ears

To stop my tears ?

Is it brave to forgive ?

Better to forget and live ?

Maybe courage is just letting go

Of something old,borrowed and blue.

You.

(C) Slumpless

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Standby Me

I was just an option

A page in your twirling filofax

Spin.Spin. Spin.

Did I win ?

Is it me today ?

I had torn the pages out of my book

Burnt some of them.

For you.

You were it.

For me.

A,B,C all the way to Xxx

Now I’ve got the hump

I feel like a chump.

Again.

(C) Slumpless

Confetti

The sharp, piercing blade of your mouth

Shredded me to confetti

I was airborne. Torn.

Was it better to be scattered though?

Perhaps the pieces of me held together by comfortable glue

Were now going places.

Each tiny, fluttering scrap had eyes to see.

More vision than the old me.

And when this ache of being hacked up fades

All the tiny fragments will return to the fold

And I will be wiser, braver and bold.

(C) Slumpless

Hi Tide

It wasn’t just the salt on my skin

The golden shimmer on the rippling shore

It wasn’t my immersion into cool sloshing waves

Nor the sweet grip of the tide on my back.

I lay, bobbing on the ever changing surface

And felt the swell take over me.

It wasn’t just the swimming

It was the giving of myself to a power greater than my limbs could fathom

The surrender to a pull that knows no end

Ruled by moon perhaps but I prefer the tilting theory

A basin tipped by a whirling sphere

A sphere tipped by an unknow hand.

So I dove under.

Forgot the orange peel that had beached me for years

The uneven tone of a too many wobbling folds.

I swam. I swam. I swam.

I was mermaid for a day until the dusky touch of a falling sun

Beckoned me back to shore.

(C)Slumpless

Vinegar

You must be made of bitter stuff

How else are you able to sting so much ?

The very tongue I thought was made of honey

Is forked.

The fingers that stopped my rattles

Are spears, dipped in vinegar

And you pour it into my wounds

Like I’m a newspaper full of fries.

Lies. LIES. Lies.

You undermined everything with spiralling secrets.

And now I can’t see the sky for the trees

The love for the pleas

The never ending clockwork circle

I’m wound up.

Turning like a silly soldier

Into the fire but no little tin heart.

Just a puddle where I was once a thing

For you to play with then burn.

(C) Slumpless

Smart phone

Only smart if you are….I’m not.

I proved that.

I descended into the proverbial rabbit hole

I just couldn’t stop myself. The heat it generated in my skull should keep the battery going for years.

Hours of searching for something I was never even sure existed

By trying to prove to myself I wasn’t crazy … I became just that.

Lock me out. Of it. Of life. Of me.

Off

(C)Slumpless

Lie down

You fought until the bitter end

I’ll give you that at least

All the proof in front of me

You thought it was behind you.

You were like a cornered bird.

But at least they can fly.

You had nowhere to go

You turned into a festering mass

And I wondered how I ever saw anything else

Where were your soft, gentle hands ?

Where was your kind heart?

One lie down.

How many more ?

(C) Slumpless