You must be made of bitter stuff
How else are you able to sting so much ?
The very tongue I thought was made of honey
The fingers that stopped my rattles
Are spears, dipped in vinegar
And you pour it into my wounds
Like I’m a newspaper full of fries.
Lies. LIES. Lies.
You undermined everything with spiralling secrets.
And now I can’t see the sky for the trees
The love for the pleas
The never ending clockwork circle
I’m wound up.
Turning like a silly soldier
Into the fire but no little tin heart.
Just a puddle where I was once a thing
For you to play with then burn.
I can’t hope to catch the stars
Their jagged edges would cut through my net
And then what ?
To have but for a moment
But then for it to go?
How could my feet touch soil
My hands and body toil
Day after mutinous day
When my light had gone away?
I won’t lie in the gutter and look at the stars
I will hold the moon
Swing like a baboon.
I will not search for heaven on earth
Magic ends at birth
I will strap myself to comet
Whirl and soar and bathe in whispy galaxy
I will be part of the dream
Rather than the sleep
I will become the starlight
While you below shall weep.
I’m in a culling mood today
The type where no bullshit is allowed
If you want to be part of my life
Try fucking harder.
If you want respect….
Actually, I thought this was all pretty obvious
Oh well. Time tells.
She told on you and you and you too.
She told on my Mother and Father.
They should have tried bloody harder.
Today I have no patience for a shoulder shrug
I need people who willingly hug.
The kind who wrap me in fuzzy love
The ones who seem to be sent from above.
So today my whip is going to crack
Be a decent person or get the sack.
This is for my best friend who puts her money where her mouth is and shows kindness instead of smugness. You know who you are xxx
I must have met Medusa
For a brief moment.
Enough to turn my heart to stone.
Those snakes in her hair
Each of them with their own wicked agenda
Each the root of the cause
A heart that never thaws.
I took you to the lakes
“Is this it?” You said.
I took you to the hills but you wanted mountains.
To the woods but you wanted jungle.
I gave you my heart. But you took my soul.
My hand, but you grabbed my neck.
My devotion was met with no emotion.
My love hit a brick wall.
I’m learning to avoid the fall.
There are oceans out there for you to paddle
There are forests with trees for you to climb
Why the fuck did you even pick mine?
I hope you find what you seek
But please, please, please!
Don’t prey on the weak.
You met your match, you lit the light
And you didn’t think I shone so bright
So you played me like a cat plays with a mouse
You spat at my house
You thought I had no idea
Your old methods worked before
But I’m not humble brother
I’m not stupid mother
You knocked on the wrong door.
My brain forms connections while yours lies dormant
I know a serpent when I get bitten once
But I’m the charmer
If you need to stick your dick
In other doors ,
Then do it silly
But your balls will get chilly
I’m not the jealous kind
I think you want me to mind.
I think your lies are how you try to control me.
Make me think I’m crazy.
Crazy girl. Crazy girl.
Lucky for me, I know I’m Loco.
But not for you and never because.
Oh there now. Don’t cry those crocodile tears my dear.
It’s ok to be caught out by someone like me.
I’m clever you see ? Not the fool you hoped I’d be.
So do stop your lying
It’s ever so trying.
Kinda boring if I’m honest
You’re turning me off.
Soon there will be no electricity
Just gas light.
I had to be born again today.
Free myself of everything I thought I knew.
The net which I assumed would catch my fall
Was never there at all.
The arms that held me before I knew myself
Have turned to stone
I am well and truly alone.
As I hold my own flesh and blood
I am awake again.
I understand that there are no more excuses for their selfish maybes
I could never do this to my own baby.
Not now , not when he’s grown
I will never leave him on his own.
I guess I have to turn to other
When I can’t rely on my own…
I can’t even say it.
It hurts too much.
I am much too blue
The person I loved
I never knew.