There’s a long luscious list of reasons we should
But a jagged emporium of poisonous consequences
Jars upon jars upon shelves upon walls
Filled with outcomes. Black outcomes.
They swirl around like mini-galaxies
Holding us both hostage to our decisions.
It’s not just one you see?
All the things that led us here
A million ways we can go wrong
Or right.
Let’s sit here for a while. On the safe floor.
In the room without a door.
Where the only way out
Is in…..
Us
(c) Slumpless
I longed for solvation
Yes SOLvation.
The kind that allows you to work it all out in one fell swoop.
I tried. I did. I tried.
I could not sit. I could not sleep.
My resolve was to solve.
I did my best with everyone
I brushed things under the rug
Hug. Hug. Hug.
I hugged it out.
I wanted everyone in neat littles boxes.
Like me. Like me.
I wanted you all to like me.
I paid no heed as pieces fell off.
A chip here or there.
It was worth it wasn’t it ?
But people don’t like mess.
And they complained that I was no longer enough.
I cut my arms off for you
But you wanted me whole.
And only when I was a torso lying in the dirt
Did I see the truth of it all.
It’s a tug of war .
And if I give a little
You take a mile.
If I smirk a little
You want a smile.
So I stand firmer now
And hope you admire my might
And if you don’t
Tough fooking shite.
(C) Slumpless
Be careful with me
I have a heart that knows no limits
A soul that will search for embers in every cavity of you
Long after the fire dies out.
Be careful.
Because it has already begun
That gentle drum
Louder and faster
Until it hums and I float mid-air
Waiting for your nectar.
Don’t play with light
If you can’t take the glare.
Careful lover. Careful.
I have a bellyful of you but I still want more.
(c) Slumpless
I used to melt
I was puddle to your shining light
Now I all I see is the sun bouncing off your head
Your mysterious smile
Was just a sneer.
How strange !
How my heart deceived me.
I used to feel.
Everything.
I think my brain vibrated to every beat of your heart
When I must have believed you had one.
Now it’s just static.
But what a delight. What a delicious relief
My body moves to its own beat, its own heat.
Now if I fall it’s only for a real rock. Not a stone.
Not alone.
(C) Slumpless
When I find myself in the midst of groggy strife.
When I can’t even see the sky for the black
I listen. I listen.
To the thumping drum ,the melodic hum.
It resonates with my soul
Takes the dust from my eyes
Lets me see heaven.
So when I feel choked with life’s regrets and woes
When all I see is darkness.
The cure. The fix.The trick.
Is music, music,music.
(C) Slumpless
I scrambled into the derelict halls of you
And wove through the scattered rubble of your heart
Siphoning blood in hopes that you would..
You might..
Never mind. I was going elsewhere
I was moving up
Your clavicle was my trampoline
Up up I soared
To the complex tunnels in your head
Wandering there instead
It’s heaven up here. And Hell.
Too much going on to tell
Do you love me ?Or am I insane
There are no clues in your busy brain
And now I’m lost in this terrible maze
Those horrible hours melding into days.
Then suddenly I find myself moving south
Lolling in your exquisite mouth
A sudden jerk , I feel a lunge
From your body I am expunged.
I lie in dribble on the floor
The mystery of you is no more
I saw your innards , I thought I was a lifer
But your thoughts I could not decipher
That time inside took its toll
I never made it to your soul
Perhaps it’s better never to find
What goes on in a lover’s mind.
(C) Slumpless
I longed for you through inky night and harsh sunlight I called on the stars to help me. I summoned the winds to bring you near. My every thought was spattered with you Scattered by you. Your effervescent tongue had awakened every nerve. I felt flooded by your spirit Engulfed by your soul. And then it stopped. I stopped. And you called. (c) Slumpless
No need for flowers When your words build towers. If meaning is conveyed All is not lost Complexity does not always a poet make. Yes there is beauty in finding the perfect word The perfect formation A superb creation Those words that leave literati gasping But joy can also be found in beautiful simplicity In a thought not over-processed, not pulverised One whose very essence remains untouched One that reaches the masses, all the classes That speaks for us all That has us enthralled So fear not Or compare your words with others Do not seek to alter your voice. Yes this is a craft But one of many forms Of many facets And yours has assets Of its own. (c) Slumpless Originally posted 15.06.16
I followed the wind today If it can make haste Then so must I. I rode its unpredictable back An elemental goddess in my prime. I moved with the leaves Swept willingly along the path. They danced jigs around my feet, my head I was crowned their Queen. Me? A Queen! I felt all the power of the gusts inside me. A whirling dervish, hovering above ground Nothing but the sound of leaf adulation Oh what a sound! Yesterday I trudged through mud Pulled my collar up against the draught Sighed as the leaves stuck to my shoes. Heard nothing but howling. But today at last I will not freeze I will harness the power of that wonderful breeze. (c) Slumpless
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And I forgot you Or rather, my skin did And that was what my mind needed too To not need you. There were no longer welts of desire on my breasts It's all for the best I suppose. Who knows ? Me. I do. I knew. I do feel lighter..brighter And I wonder how I could have ever let myself become so weak? Bleak. Those languid, legs of yours Draped over mine. Drinking wine. As if you really wanted to own me Phoney. Fake. Take. Take. Break. I thought I was in control. but I lost my soul All the things that gave me joy Abandoned for a boy. A toy. A thief. Because you stole from me. You did. Every last quid. Every piece of gold that made me bold. Then you handed out crumbs to a starving heart. Knowing I would play the part. Dangle Trying to wrangle Food from your palms. Morsels of loving goodness that I would lap up like a cat. But there was no love. Just game. I was another name. Another crazy girl. Because that's what you'll tell the next one As I beg for you to keep me in your life. You'll roll you eyes at her about how lame I am. And she'll laugh a little.Nervously like I did. She'll wonder. Ponder. But only for a minute Because you won't let her think. Not for a second. You will smother her with your weighty arms All those little love charms. And by the time the truth hits her ears There will be too many tears. Anyway it all comes out in the end. And that's when you run. No more fun. Not when we all see you for what you do.. Oh but the return to peace from pieces Is worth the hiss. The calm bliss of a mind not tormented by a million questions To which you shrugged. The worst part is that I thought I had no limits. No quits. That I was the definition of a masochist. I couldn't be a heroine ? Addict. Addicted. To you. But suddenly it stopped. You dropped like a bag of stones. Bones. Off my radar you went. When you had spent me. And I guess I'm glad. Because I don't feel sad. I feel nothing. Nothing. I was after all. Nothing. To you. (c) Slumpless
It wasn’t just the salt on my skin
The golden shimmer on the rippling shore
It wasn’t my immersion into cool sloshing waves
Nor the sweet grip of the tide on my back.
I lay, bobbing on the ever changing surface
And felt the swell take over me.
It wasn’t just the swimming
It was the giving of myself to a power greater than my limbs could fathom
The surrender to a pull that knows no end
Ruled by moon perhaps but I prefer the tilting theory
A basin tipped by a whirling sphere
A sphere tipped by an unknow hand.
So I dove under.
Forgot the orange peel that had beached me for years
The uneven tone of a too many wobbling folds.
I swam. I swam. I swam.
I was mermaid for a day until the dusky touch of a falling sun
Beckoned me back to shore.
(C)Slumpless
