Let’s go out you said
And we were both afraid
You flinched a little.
Outside was the world
Large and absurd
We had our den
Pizza on the bed, coffee on the floor
A little less, a whole lot more
Twisted in bed sheets and things unsaid
Warm with potential.
Outside there were eyes. Wide and surprised.
My oh my and oh how you lied.
So maybe let’s stay in a while longer
The world can wait until we’re a little bit stronger.
You make me interesting.
I remember things I never used to.
Little slivers of pointless information
That you lap up.
All my quirks can be displayed
Until the right moment
And I’m all new to you again.
There’s so much of me I want to give
And for once I feel like a well
Spluttering forth crystal drops
Of something that restores you.
Makes you whole.
I am only like this with you
You show up the invisible ink in me
The words that others don’t see
You use your fingertips… your tongue
Your lovely mouth whips me into a frenzy
I’m soaring above new clouds
That are fluffier than the last
Is it too fast?
I don’t care.
Because with you, I do.
I thought we had movie love
The kiss in the rain feel no pain kind
Run down the streets shouting my name
Fight monsters and beasts
Just to see me.
But no ever-after, for us .
Ours is the tragic kind
The one you wish you could rewind
Less flame more fog
The sad, silent type of film
And I’m not sure if you’re speaking
Or if I need subtitles
And it’s all just too much to watch
I want to look away
But my eyes are glued to this scene
Will it ever end ?
Reeling.Reeling. I’m reeling.
NO we can’t be friends
Why would you even ask ?
When you know that your skin beside mine
Is nothing short of water to a parched tree
I can’t just pretend to like you
It would all seep out in the end
No you are lover not friend.
My hands can’t shake yours
Nor my lips mutter pleasantries
When inside I’m a cavern of want
You will haunt
But better as a memory …please
Friendship is just a tease.
I’m pressed up against your atmosphere
Gazing longingly at your world
I want to get closer but
You are miles away and I would kill your air if I got any closer
There are holes in this o zone
And I can’t fill them or pass through
I’m neither here or there
Hot, cold air.
Cold. So cold.
If I look behind me there is endless black
So I stay.
Face squashed against the one thing you can’t live without
And the only thing keeping me here.
Ok it’s time to retreat
Pull back woman for God’s sake.
You have your own personal Groundhog day.
Use it. Remember. Learn.
You put your heart on your sleeve
So let him simmer. Let him wonder.
Don’t tear your own life asunder.
Let it be. Just wait in the long grass.
You do it so well when you don’t really care
It may not be fun
But if you push
He will run.
Maybe it’s better if he does
I cry alone in the kitchen
Soft burbles on the outside
Giant blubbering within.
I can’t let him see what has happened my heart
He never even knew it was gone.
Wretched. Wicked. Wrecked.
The smell of burnt rice reminds me of my place
So I wipe my face
Breathe deeply, stop the whines
It is after all Valentine’s.