I longed for you through inky night and harsh sunlight
I called on the stars to help me.
I summoned the winds to bring you near.
My every thought was spattered with you
Scattered by you.
Your effervescent tongue had awakened every nerve.
I felt flooded by your spirit
Engulfed by your soul.
And then it stopped.
And you called.
Do you hear me in the depths of night
When I whisper your name ?
You must feel those words of longing pulse their way into your dreams.
How else can you explain the reasons you wake up in the dark ?
I’m all the way over here my dear
But whispers fly through time
Driven by a thumping clock that knows no distance.
I won’t let you sleep
I won’t let you sleep.
Can I draw the liquid lines of you with my thumbing stroke?
Bleed the sap that I know lingers in the funnel of your heart?
Oh there are ways and means to make your fountain flow
I know most but not all
I will find the waterfall
I strum and hum the tunes that make oblique, the straight lines of your beautiful legs
You beg for more lick and that’s the trick.
Just a breath away.
I’ll stay just a breath away until even a whisper, will send you to simmer
The releasing breaths of a chord too highly strung
Is magic, melody to ears and head that need a patting. A petting.
Wet. Wet. Wetting.
I brought you stardust.
I went all the way up to the heavens
And gathered it in the palm of my hands.
I fought my way back into your murky atmosphere
Just to get a nod. A pat on the head.
But instead of warm air I got a vacuum
Cold and harsh
You suck the life from me.
How can there be lust
Without a sprinkle of stardust?
Don’t make me choose
Because I will choose you
What did you think ?
But a part of me will always wonder
Will always wander
And you will see it in my distant eyes
In that hazy glaze that far off daze.
Don’t make me pick between him and you
There’s no need
He’s him and he’s New.
Don’t battle for my heart
You’ve already won.
Your flag is right in the centre.
But boundaries shift
You know they must
From love to lust
Then back again
Don’t make me decide between shore and tide
It’s amazing what frothy waters can hide.
I will always sway between both
The moon makes it so
I come. Sometimes.
I’m tossing and turning
Twisted in the memories of you
I just want to be alone so I can savor them
Flavor them with all my nuances.
You licked the core of me
As I read to you.
Your hands stroked me
Over and over like I was made of puppies.
And I think I wagged my tail
Just for your bone.
God I can’t stand not getting you
All the time .
Rapid breaths over and over.
Roll me. Knead me.
I need you.
Feast on moistened flesh
That rises and expands with heat.
I’m in hell until I see you
Again and again and again.
Crimson kick to the gut
I should have seen it coming
Ouch. Blissful pain.
Again. Again. Again.
But more than a kick
Gentle on my soul
Rocking it back and forth
Lulling us to sleep
Rock a bye me. Rock a bye you.
Can you kiss my temple again ?
Can you squeeze my soles
I thought all parts of me has been touched
I was wrong.
You fill up the venuoles
You surf on my lymph
Render me nymph.
Smooth me over. Make me new.
I’m still jagged from the last one.
Still afraid of lying fingers.
But you don’t subtract from me.
You give. You add.
Treat me like an Angel
And I will fly for you
Tell me I’m beautiful
And I will grow more so
I am what you put in
And take out
In. Out. In. Out.
This is what love is about.
You touch my skin ever so slightly
But I feel weight in those fingers
I feel light. Lighter.
I’m flying above this room
I’m floating on lavender clouds
Your breath is the breeze
And for now you control my direction.
I must remember though
That I am more than Angel
That I hold both dark and light
And the balance is mine to keep
I must not let the heavens weep
So treat me well and I will be an Angel
But there are parts of me that
That are mine alone
Mine to mould
Mine to hone.
Your fingers are magic
Your touch is delight
You hold the lighter
But I carry the light.
I give in
I am made to fall.
True. Mad. Deep.
Down the exquisite rabbit hole.
Hitting every pleasure bump on my way to the underworld.
Bang. Bang. Bang.
Oooh that’s nice.
I have tried to peer in
I have clung to the ledge and watched longingly from afar
But that rabbit knows me well
And his eyes hold pity.
I will always follow the bunny
Bunny. Runny. Run.
Would I really change it though.
While others walk on solid ground
I am both above and then under.
Hello. High. Low.
Bang. Bang. Bang.
How sweet it is to be held in honey
Luscious and amber ,tongue to cheek
I’m weak. I’m weak.
I hadn’t realized that I was worthy of this manaaaaah
The delight in craving
Something that is saving
Me. You. Us.
Is there a sting coming though?
Do u feed me sugar and spice ?
Keep it nice
Until suddenly you strike
And I’m again fool
Caught in a sticky spool
Left to dream at night
I will clear the sediment from my spleen
All the imperfect feelings that linger in my guts
I will filter through the muddy waters of my mouth
The raging tides of down south
I’ll clean the gutters of my unclean laugh
“It’s too raucous”, he said.
I’ll shave the bones of me
I will do anything to make him see
Something else other than me
I’ll be shiny and new
No black or blue.
He won’t wonder about my past
Never be aghast
My cheery demeanor won’t let him ask
The silt like blood that courses through
Will pass through a sieve
Change from old to new
But where oh where, will all the waste go ?
Why my darling don’t you know ?
Sedimentary, Dear Watson. From dirt to rock.
The pieces of me that may cause shock.