Smart phone

Only smart if you are….I’m not.

I proved that.

I descended into the proverbial rabbit hole

I just couldn’t stop myself. The heat it generated in my skull should keep the battery going for years.

Hours of searching for something I was never even sure existed

By trying to prove to myself I wasn’t crazy … I became just that.

Lock me out. Of it. Of life. Of me.

Off

(C)Slumpless

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Lie down

You fought until the bitter end

I’ll give you that at least

All the proof in front of me

You thought it was behind you.

You were like a cornered bird.

But at least they can fly.

You had nowhere to go

You turned into a festering mass

And I wondered how I ever saw anything else

Where were your soft, gentle hands ?

Where was your kind heart?

One lie down.

How many more ?

(C) Slumpless

Gas Light

You met your match, you lit the light

And you didn’t think I shone so bright

So you played me like a cat plays with a mouse

You spat at my house

You thought I had no idea

Your old methods worked before

But I’m not humble brother

I’m not stupid mother

Naive whore.

You knocked on the wrong door.

My brain forms connections while yours lies dormant

I know a serpent when I get bitten once

But I’m the charmer

Not you.

If you need to stick your dick

In other doors ,

Then do it silly

But your balls will get chilly

I’m not the jealous kind

I think you want me to mind.

I think your lies are how you try to control me.

Make me think I’m crazy.

Crazy girl. Crazy girl.

Lucky for me, I know I’m Loco.

But not for you and never because.

Oh there now. Don’t cry those crocodile tears my dear.

It’s ok to be caught out by someone like me.

I’m clever you see ? Not the fool you hoped I’d be.

So do stop your lying

It’s ever so trying.

Kinda boring if I’m honest

You’re turning me off.

Soon there will be no electricity

Just gas light.

(C)Slumpless

Coffin girl

Can I offer you a coffin ?

There was nothing but sincerity in his tone.

‘I’m not quite ready for that ‘ I laughed

‘Oh but you are’. He said

You are already dead.

Dead ? What did he mean ?

I looked down at my hands

And saw nothing but bones

No smooth flesh no veins.

I was skeleton from tarsals to top.

Poor corpse. Poor corpse.

Running around pretending to be alive.

‘I ..I thought I had this covered, I didn’t think they knew.’

‘No my dear, it’s obvious you’re a corpse right through and through.’

(C) Slumpless

Bit by Bit

Maybe I’m dead already

I feel you walking on my grave

I shout and scream but no one hears

No one cares.

I’m a corpse among the living

But not the pretty sugar skull, kind.

I’m ignored. Muted. Paused.

Can anyone hear me ? Anyone ?

When did it happen ?

When was my last laugh ? My last guttural outburst?

It’s all dampened down now.

Hush. Hush. Hush.

No matter how hard I dance for you all

I feel you have written me off

Bit by bit by obituary.

(C)Slumpless

Too Muchness

You’re very aware of your “too muchness” He said.

“Much too much” I replied

I’m much too emotional

Much too intense

Much too mad

Much too sad

It’s all too much you know ?

But for who ? For me ? For you?

What about too less ? Isn’t that worse ?

Much more of a curse?

I suppose he’s right.

I suppose more is better

Then why do I feel less ?

(C)Slumpless

Is it me ?

When you’re fighting with everyone and you ask yourself “Is it me ?”

Maybe for once it’s not.

Maybe everyone

IS an asshole

And you’re finally seeing it.

But if everyone treats you badly

Is it because you let them ?

(C)Slumpless

But if everyone is an asshole…what are you ?