You break the heart of me my love
Cut the soul right out of its skin.
Over. Over.And over
I let you do it it.
This pulsing part on a plate
Sloshed about like a cheap stew
Made cheaper by me.
While I yearn for your expensive smile
The one that only comes out at night.
Me ? My teeth are always on display
Night. Day. I just give it away
As if it means nothing.
Talk is cheap but so is a smile.
And mine is free.
This is a follow on from my previous poem “Add Bliss” . Oh how wrong was I 😀 !!
You can’t even give me two.
You emptied me out.
Gentle and slow.
I didn’t even know.
How could I ?
You’re a thief and sculpture.
Taking truth and shaping it so divine
I couldn’t help but pine..
I’m over you.
I tell myself this silly tale
As tall as what you told me.
But I’m not as good at fibs
And all I can do is cringe.
Over and over at my pathetic need
For you to miss. Miss. Miss me.
Remember our kisses ?
They’ve all turned to hisses.
No bliss. No bliss. Just blood.
When the air cools and you feel the pull
Of other fingers on your hair
When my soft whispers no longer lull you to sleep
And your warm stomach no longer nestles into my back
When all the things I thought were true
When you had me and I was new
All of those little loves.
Still scaffold the bones of me.
So please. Please. Please
Be kinder dear. Be kind.
You have hit fast forward
While I still rewind.
Be gentle on this fragile thing
Remember, you once made it sing
She might seem shiny and full of life
The potential to be a perfect wife
But I shone too… at the start
Before you stomped on my living heart.
Only smart if you are….I’m not.
I proved that.
I descended into the proverbial rabbit hole
I just couldn’t stop myself. The heat it generated in my skull should keep the battery going for years.
Hours of searching for something I was never even sure existed
By trying to prove to myself I wasn’t crazy … I became just that.
Lock me out. Of it. Of life. Of me.
You fought until the bitter end
I’ll give you that at least
All the proof in front of me
You thought it was behind you.
You were like a cornered bird.
But at least they can fly.
You had nowhere to go
You turned into a festering mass
And I wondered how I ever saw anything else
Where were your soft, gentle hands ?
Where was your kind heart?
One lie down.
How many more ?
You met your match, you lit the light
And you didn’t think I shone so bright
So you played me like a cat plays with a mouse
You spat at my house
You thought I had no idea
Your old methods worked before
But I’m not humble brother
I’m not stupid mother
You knocked on the wrong door.
My brain forms connections while yours lies dormant
I know a serpent when I get bitten once
But I’m the charmer
If you need to stick your dick
In other doors ,
Then do it silly
But your balls will get chilly
I’m not the jealous kind
I think you want me to mind.
I think your lies are how you try to control me.
Make me think I’m crazy.
Crazy girl. Crazy girl.
Lucky for me, I know I’m Loco.
But not for you and never because.
Oh there now. Don’t cry those crocodile tears my dear.
It’s ok to be caught out by someone like me.
I’m clever you see ? Not the fool you hoped I’d be.
So do stop your lying
It’s ever so trying.
Kinda boring if I’m honest
You’re turning me off.
Soon there will be no electricity
Just gas light.
Can I offer you a coffin ?
There was nothing but sincerity in his tone.
‘I’m not quite ready for that ‘ I laughed
‘Oh but you are’. He said
You are already dead.
Dead ? What did he mean ?
I looked down at my hands
And saw nothing but bones
No smooth flesh no veins.
I was skeleton from tarsals to top.
Poor corpse. Poor corpse.
Running around pretending to be alive.
‘I ..I thought I had this covered, I didn’t think they knew.’
‘No my dear, it’s obvious you’re a corpse right through and through.’