You undo all the things I’ve done
Where I put the kettle.
Where I left the salt.
You move me around like I’m made of nothing
And all I want to do is run.
I don’t think you would notice
Until breakfast time when the coffee doesn’t appear beside your bed.
You rearranged my kitchen.
And now I have nothing.
(C) Slumpless
I must have met Medusa
For a brief moment.
Enough to turn my heart to stone.
Those snakes in her hair
Each of them with their own wicked agenda
Each the root of the cause
A heart that never thaws.
(C) Slumpless
I had to be born again today.
Free myself of everything I thought I knew.
The net which I assumed would catch my fall
Was never there at all.
The arms that held me before I knew myself
Have turned to stone
I am well and truly alone.
As I hold my own flesh and blood
I am awake again.
I understand that there are no more excuses for their selfish maybes
I could never do this to my own baby.
Not now , not when he’s grown
I will never leave him on his own.
I guess I have to turn to other
When I can’t rely on my own…
I can’t even say it.
It hurts too much.
I am much too blue
The person I loved
I never knew.
(C) Slumpless
I just wanted to take his little hand and run.
Jump on a bus and go on an adventure.
He didn’t want to go to school and little sobs racked his big soul.
His quivering lips , his wet eyes.
I wasn’t ready for such goodbyes.
All I could think was that:
His whole life would be filled with timetables.
One day
He wouldn’t be able to run away.
So why not today son?Why the hell not.
Let’s run while we still can.
While it’s still fun
Because someday you won’t have your mum.
Someday you’ll be in a suit and tie
With no one at the gate to wave goodbye
(c) Slumpless
Your voice has always held me back
But now I’m ready to dub it over.
I’ll do it like in the movies
You know where the sun comes out
As the credits roll?
I’ll dance into the distance.
Become a speck on the screen.
Your power over me less keen.
I have never been able to follow my soul
You were always too loud
Judging my goal.
So hush now. Hush.
Please don’t complain
Because listening to you
Has made me insane.
(C) Slumpless
All we do these days is compete
Which one of us is more depressed?
Your slouching shoulders tell me it’s your turn
But I’m still staying in bed all day.
‘How are you?’ Has become a rhetorical question.
I don’t really want to know and neither do you.
We don’t so much discuss as rant.
Shouldn’t. Wouldn’t. Can’t
No my day was worse.
No I’m more tired.
No I’m the one closer to getting fired.
To think that once we tried
To colour our days pink
To lay roses on the ground to cover the mud.
Now it’s no good.
But wait. Wait.
We can stop. We can change.
Let’s just pretend.
Fake it for a while until the smiles are less strange.
Let’s be better.
Let’s try to bring in the light
Because I’m really fed up
Of this dark depressing plight.
(c) Slumpless
Don’t make our life together seem mundane
Just because your friends paint their walls black
And ours are eggshell blue.
Don’t make me feel like I’m a bore
Because your friends smoke weed all day
While I sit at a desk and type.
I could just as easily stop you know.
I could wear baggy trousers and braid my hair.
Pop pills for breakfast and acid for tea.
I blame the movies. That romantic hue
That colors everything they do.
Makes it seem dreamy, makes us seem dim
Dreary. Dreary. That’s how you see us now.
Go live your dreams then. Go open a brewery.
Wear a t-shirt with your favorite band.
Cartwheel in the sand.
Laugh at stupid jokes from stupid smokes
Frozen in time while I move on.
It’s not that you are wrong
But then neither am I.
There has to be credit given for changing before you die.
I don’t want my children to wonder while
I have a glaze in my eyes and a faraway smile.
So yes I’m sorry I may not be as fun
To me it’s more important to be mum.
(c) Slumpless
Would you remember me dear
If I disappeared?
Would you remember the picnics ?
Cracking eggs into the batter
The painting, the splatter?
Would you remember me holding you when you fell
Kissing your cheeks, holding you tight
Tucking you into bed at night ?
Would you remember how I stared at you in wonder
Love tearing me asunder?
Would you remember the books we read
The films we watched
How my heart never felt so full.
Would you remember it beating close to your head
Would you remember anything I said?
Oh my love, my darling, my joy
If I were in the ground
Would you remember the sound
Of my voice ?
Would I want you to ?
(c) Slumpless
