Stop

Stop. I need to stop.

When my heart steals away in the night

Time travelling back to your hands in my hair

Stop.

I need to quench this thirst for memories

I am laden down with heavy baskets full of the past.

How can I move when every finger is weighed down?

I trudge through the days without you.

And I think I must have seen myself back then when you held me in the night.

I’m pretty sure it was me , sitting in corner looking sad.

Stop.

But how do I do it ?

Learn, when all I do is yearn ?

Smile without wincing?

Is there a potion made to numb ?

Now I understand gin.

You win.

I’m glass and always was and you’re the stone that landed in this vessel.

Tomorrow is another day..

Without you.

(C) Slumpless

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Deeper

Dig deep you sad little thing

Find that flutter, buried under hard concrete.

Deeper. Deeper.

It’s in there… somewhere.

What does it take, to make the earth shake ?

For you ?

Is it fire that gets you going

Or do prefer ice ?

You’ve forgotten I know

We all do.

So keep digging my friend.

Keep going through rock, sand and shale

You might fail. Or you might find seed

The one that needs the light.

The one you thought was dead.

The one buried in a hole.

Deep. Deep within your soul.

(C) Slumpless

When the air cools

When the air cools and you feel the pull

Of other fingers on your hair

When my soft whispers no longer lull you to sleep

And your warm stomach no longer nestles into my back

When all the things I thought were true

When you had me and I was new

All of those little loves.

Still scaffold the bones of me.

So please. Please. Please

Be kinder dear. Be kind.

You have hit fast forward

While I still rewind.

Be gentle on this fragile thing

Remember, you once made it sing

She might seem shiny and full of life

The potential to be a perfect wife

But I shone too… at the start

Before you stomped on my living heart.

(C) Slumpless

Alien Ways

I’m diluted by all the opinions I seek

Looking for approval makes me weak.

Who am I really when no one is around?

I’m a blurry mess right now

A pulled pork.

Scratching. Scratching. Scratchings.

I hunt for enlightenment in black holes.

Suck. Sucking. Sucked in.

Nobody gives me the right answer.

Does that mean I’m wrong ?

Or does it mean I’m different ?

Not in a black coat, dark eyeshadow kind of way

But truly alien, from another world.

I know it sounds absurd.

But I don’t want what they want

I have bigger eyes. A bigger head.

Five fingers maybe… but still ..but still

So now I am resolved

To no longer be dissolved

To stay true to my own matter

Block out the pointless chatter

I’ll put the Extra into ET.

Stop waiting for others to agree.

If I really am from another sphere

I’ll make the most of my time here.

(C) Slumpless

Soft And Sad 

I will follow you like a whimper

Soft and sad. Slobbering on your shoulder.

You hate the way my nostrils flare 

The way my face puffs when I cry

I’m a useless jelly

A wobbling mass

“Silly Billy.Silly Billy.”

You say it with no hint of light

No glint of love. 

You have nothing else to say.
And I have nowhere else to go.

(C) Slumpless

IVY

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I will never tire of you, just as you are

Sublime perfection, shining in the soft sunshine.

But I can already feel you wilting..tilting towards other flowers

And I have always been ivy

Climbing the walls,

Clinging too tight.

Needing to be ‘cut back’.

They don’t say ‘Ivy power’ do they ?

No.

You hold all the cards petal.

And soon the light will fade.

But where you need heat

I survive in the shade.

(c) Slumpless

Unfurling

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I broke the corners of my soul 
And gave you those lonely edges
They tasted like me you said
Mostly good but tainted with need.
'Is that bad?' I said.
'Needing?'
You laughed.
'It will be your undoing.'
You were right of course.
And as I unfurl the remainder of my curled up love
I see it is blackened by our plight.
(c) Slumpless