And I’m mostly good ..mostly kind
But with you and because of you
I have dabbled in bold
Submerged my clean slate in mud
Oh but for those moments of bliss and shakes
Will I spend eternity with the snakes?
And if I believe in God will She forgive me?
Why should She though?
I knew it was wrong.
But She gave me these earthly wants
I mean She pushed us together didn’t She?
And who did we really harm?
Is that the point?
Better the devil you know
But she doesn’t know.
She doesn’t know.
We cling to each other like limpets
As wretched storms howl above
Hurling light back and forth
Havoc outside our beautiful bliss.
Angry seas won't take you from me
Nor greedy fingers searching for salty mouthfuls
Your softness is mine tonight
Your ebb and flow
The angry mass can come and go
But now the winds have calmed
And gull cries can be heard again
The floating remnants of unfortunate wrecks
Will keep us buoyant
And though we may feel a chill
All around us the water is still.
You don’t know it but I still lug you around
Close to the ground
You weigh more than you should and I still don’t know why
And sometimes when I least expect it
You fall on the floor
All the remnants of what we were
Lie scattered about for all to see.
I’m getting better though
Better at packing you away.
At folding all those wrinkles out.
And someday(when I’m ready)
I will leave you behind in on a train
And you will be the one who is lost.
Suddenly your face was the face
Your eyes were the eyes
And once more I am obliterated
And all my pieces are scattered in the wind.
Today I spilled right out of my skin
My blood ran over and over
Full of wonderful life
I wanted you all to know what it was like
To look at wind the same way as I do
To see the swirling leaves dance especially for me.
I think I entered a wormhole on my own
Because everyone else was quite forlorn
And when I danced in the rain
They put up their umbrellas.
You tricked me into adoring you
You whispered songs in my ear and kissed my neck
I thought you were a gift
And in those moments I can see
That I rewrote my life for you
And even though I lost the plot
I worked you into my lines
Twisted you through the verses of my ways.
So now that you can walk past me in the street
Without a blink.Without a wink.
I wonder were our pages ever filled?
I called you an eraser before
But now I think you're highlighter.
Because you have shown me the errors of my ways
And though it has been ages and ages
I'm ready to remove you from my pages.
Can I be kinder to myself this time ?
Not go looking for cotton in a cement wall
Please don’t let one word,undo me again.
I have to be brick this time.
I don’t need a wolf at my door to tell me he can blow me down.
Don’t let me read into it all
Because I do, you know.
I think that it means something.
That the universe is pushing us together
But maybe it’s just testing my new home.
Maybe it’s the final test
Before I put you to rest
The final howl
The final growl
When you were wolf
And I was moon.