There is a pulsing in the hearth again
That breathes life into the most mundane of things
A child wrapped in a towel
A cat splayed out in the sun
The thud of it all
The pinch of spice into my cauldron
Is all alive with the promise
That day after day after day
It might end the same way
And that my longing for things wild and free
Is right here with me.
I have paid the price for a half-life
A half thought.
A relationship fraught.
Together ? Or not?
He loves you. He loves you not.
Make a decision for f#*%k’s sake.
The ground won’t shake.
Then maybe we would have been ok.
Better rounded. Our depression unfounded.
Oh what a burden to carry
Did they mean to marry?
Wishing they would divorce
It couldn’t get any worse.
Not for me. Not for us.
A life undefined.
Something terribly wrong but not on paper
Never on paper. Too black and white.
Enough with this shite.
It’s not right. It never was.
Were you trying to protect us?
Or was it yourselves you were trying to save?
Neither one of you brave..
Only now I can move on
Try not to do the same wrongs.
You’re still ostriches though
At least you’ll be grand
With your heads in the sand.
Not us. Definitely not me.
The blinkers are gone
The things I always believed , the same old song
No more. No more.
I want more.
So much more.
They say it’s love before sight
And it’s true.
I loved you before you were born.
Before you were torn from me.
Before those tiny hands grabbed my fingers
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