Loose End

Half finished knitting, lying like a sad multicolored cat on the table.
A half crudely cut curtain grimacing at me from the shadows
Half done.
Projects I intend to finish but never do.
I do things by halves. Perfect halves.

Except love.

That’s heart and soul and pieces of flesh.
Imperfectly whole.
And that’s why I’m finished. Complete.
Ended.
You came into this halfheartedly.
And now I am at a loose end.
(C) Slumpless

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Sorry. Not sorry.

I said sorry when I didn’t mean it.
I wanted to shrug off the shawl of unease
To try to please…
You ?
Me ?
God ?
I said sorry for something I didn’t do
But for my reaction to you.
It was a lie.
Just like yours.
Sneaky, impure.
I learned from the best after all.
But I take it back.
I didn’t mean to apologise
To the person who lies and lies.
You made your bed of those
And in it you repose.
You’re at peace with a life of strife
But I pity your future wife.
I’ll just be the crazy Ex
You’ll shrug your shoulders… Perplexed.
Oh I’m the one that got away.
I ran you see ? I ran and ran.

Sorry ? No I’m fucking not.

(C) Slumpless

Lost

I carried marbles when I was with you
I held tiny , the worlds that I should have lived
But when I let go and they scattered
I wasn’t empty. I wasn’t shattered.
I watched each roll about its shiny way
And I knew I would be ok
I hadn’t lost my marbles
I had set them free
Tiny worlds away from thee
Little spheres of perfect glass
To show me the insignificance of what did pass
There was never an us
Just you. Just me.
I didn’t lose my marbles
I set them free.
(C) Slumpless

I Hold It All

I will always suffer this sight
That lends itself across time and space
I see fathoms and fault lines
Swirling moonrock in a universe far from ours
I don’t think in minutes. Hours. Centuries.
They mean nothing to me.
I see circles and curls
Elipses.
Whisps of words spoken light years ago
The first laugh into the sky.
The first tear that set the earth alight.
So if I don’t see you tomorrow
Or the next
Don’t look for me with eyes. Don’t search to touch with your fingertips
To kiss me with your lips.
I am something you cannot lose or find
Flowing through you and past you and back again.
Love is not a word that I just uttered.
It is my print on the matrix that binds us .

I do not fall.

I hold it all.

(C) Slumpless

A Beast For The Senses

I will take over your senses with relentless sound
Sing you to sleep then whisper you awake.
I will camp on your tongue, spooning only velvet texture down your throat.
Your skin will be oiled smooth, by my hands
And when you hear a song you will think only of me.

Taste ,touch ,sight all will be my plight…
For now.
I will make you forget the moon and the sun
And when I finally become your everything..
I will run
Only the faint memory of a million kisses will set your hair on end.
This is what I do my friend.
I blind you with my heat
Deafen your senses.
Leave. You grieve.
I repeat.
(C) Slumpless

I Deserve Better

“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”
But for me it’s getting time to ponder
To think back on all little things I tried to ignore
How you wouldn’t even hold the door.

I deserve better.

The perspective I needed is coming true
I can now imagine life without you
If I think about it you were never there
Did you really even care?

I deserve better.

To think I could go so very low
How far down could my standards go ?
I made so many excuses for your strange ways
Wasted so many precious days.

I deserve better.

The worse thing is that I turned mad
Became something that made me sad
Call it crazy you certainly do
While you press my buttons the whole day through.

I deserve better.

Well it worked my sweet, you did the trick
By becoming an unbearable dick.
By making it all about you.

Now I’m getting better.
How about you ?

(C) Slumpless

Fan Flare

It’s dire this open fire
This unguarded flame
I will always be the same

Open at the hearth

Allowing you to throw rubbish on my light
You fuel me, yes
But eventually I burn out.

Ah but not without a spark here and there.
Not without some flare.