How sweet the pavement seemed today
I licked it as I walked.
Consumed the lemon light
It’s zesty beams resting lightly in my mouth.
I’m leaving you see..
And nothing makes the street seem sweeter
Than knowing that soon I will walk it no more
Those trudging,weighted steps of yesterday
Seem so far away.
A hop, skip and a lump in my throat
I will miss the smiling man on his bike
The old, shuffling lady with her bowled over gait
And most of all,
I will miss you.
The streets where you live.
Where your candy kisses coated my tongue
And your sherbert eyes still fizzle in my brain.
I took you to the lakes
“Is this it?” You said.
I took you to the hills but you wanted mountains.
To the woods but you wanted jungle.
I gave you my heart. But you took my soul.
My hand, but you grabbed my neck.
My devotion was met with no emotion.
My love hit a brick wall.
I’m learning to avoid the fall.
There are oceans out there for you to paddle
There are forests with trees for you to climb
Why the fuck did you even pick mine?
I hope you find what you seek
But please, please, please!
Don’t prey on the weak.
I brought you stardust.
I went all the way up to the heavens
And gathered it in the palm of my hands.
I fought my way back into your murky atmosphere
Just to get a nod. A pat on the head.
But instead of warm air I got a vacuum
Cold and harsh
You suck the life from me.
How can there be lust
Without a sprinkle of stardust?
I thought love was give and take.
Either way, parts being lost and handed over.
More and less.
But suddenly I knew it shouldn’t
It ought to be teach and learn
No yank or burn.
Both gaining without taking
Solving without dissolving.
I now know what love is.
It wasn’t us. Not for years
We lived on pulling and pushing tears.
And the hardest part is not losing each other
But winning the battle.
I have only a puppy heart
Needs a leash.
It jumped on you as soon as it could
And you pet it for a while
Appreciated its effervescent nature
But that was just for Christmas
And now this heart is in the pound.
Pounding. Pounding. Pounding.
Waiting to come home again.
Waiting for you to play ball.
But time has run out
And I have been put down.
There is only silence when we’re together
In my heart and in my head.
No gaps between us to let echoes bounce and bound.
No slivers of space where splintering whispers can flay my nerves away.
When your skin is on mine
Hush. Hush. Hush.
An occasional hum.
An occasional groan.
But mostly blissful
When we’re alone.
Let’s go out you said
And we were both afraid
You flinched a little.
Outside was the world
Large and absurd
We had our den
Pizza on the bed, coffee on the floor
A little less, a whole lot more
Twisted in bed sheets and things unsaid
Warm with potential.
Outside there were eyes. Wide and surprised.
My oh my and oh how you lied.
So maybe let’s stay in a while longer
The world can wait until we’re a little bit stronger.