Ostrich

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I have paid the price for a half-life

A half thought.

A relationship fraught.

Together ? Or not?

He loves you. He loves you not.

Make a decision for f#*%k’s sake.

The ground won’t shake.

Then maybe we would have been ok.

Better rounded. Our depression unfounded.

Oh what a burden to carry

Did they mean to marry?

Wishing they would divorce

It couldn’t get any worse.

Not for me. Not for us.

A life undefined.

Something terribly wrong but not on paper

Never on paper. Too black and white.

Enough with this shite.

It’s not right. It never was.

Were you trying to protect us?

Or was it yourselves you were trying to save?

Neither one of you brave..

Enough. Enough.

Only now I can move on

Try not to do the same wrongs.

You’re still ostriches though

At least you’ll be grand

With your heads in the sand.

Not us. Definitely not me.

The blinkers are gone

The things I always believed , the same old song

No more. No more.

I want more.

So much more.

(c) Slumpless

 

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Soft And Sad 

I will follow you like a whimper

Soft and sad. Slobbering on your shoulder.

You hate the way my nostrils flare 

The way my face puffs when I cry

I’m a useless jelly

A wobbling mass

“Silly Billy.Silly Billy.”

You say it with no hint of light

No glint of love. 

You have nothing else to say.
And I have nowhere else to go.

(C) Slumpless

Skim

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You didn’t see the blemishes, You didn’t feel the bumps

The bristles, the lumps

You skim your tongue over me

As if I were made of milk

Lapping at silk

All the parts I hated

Berated over the years

Have disappeared.

Your fingers

Your lips

Are smoothing me over

Like a brand new shape

A perfect sculpture

And I’m beginning to think

I’m not all that bad

I’m beginning to think..

(c) Slumpless

 

Obliterate

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Suddenly your face was the face

Your eyes were the eyes

The skies

The heavens.

And once more I am obliterated

And all my pieces are scattered in the wind.

(c) Slumpless

Softer Falls

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Did you sleep child through it all?
The Winter snow, the Spring rainfall?
While the world was teeming, calling your name
You just kept on dozing all the same
Aye Sir I did. I slumbered fast
And hoped the peace it brought would last
For only in the closing eyes
Was I able to drown out horrible cries
Aye I did Sir, I slumbered tight
Through lavish days and lulling nights
I felt the moon crown in my thighs
Felt the sun heat turquoise skies
And still I lay and still I slept
While children laughed and old ladies wept
I will always sleep
I will always laze
Not for me this ‘living craze’
For I was made for softer falls
For wider skies and gilded halls
I was made for whirring stars
For glimmering blackness
For noiseless cars.
And would you sleep boy,through your whole life?
Though not all just hardship, not all strife?
Aye Sir yes,I would indeed
Not for me this greedy breed
The world is made of many kinds
Those who live it, they don’t mind
But I am certainly not one of those
So please do leave me to repose
I  really can’t carry this heavy lumber
So Sir good night. I’m off to slumber.
(c) Slumpless ( Slumberless 🙂 )

 

Nothing to worry about

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There’s torment in the pit of me

And this tight ball of fear won’t disappear

I sit, consumed with worry

I can’t quite get a grip

These thoughts that dangle from my brain

Are covered in spiders.

Yesterday I bounced on land

Now I sink into quicksand

Is anyone else the same?

Or am I all alone in this video game?

The doctor dismissed me by being gruff

Doesn’t he know I’ve had enough?

Nothing again will fill me with cheer.

I have nothing to worry about

But everything to fear

(c) Slumpless

 

Wash-up!

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Just do the washing-up already

Pick the clothes up from the floor

Write that book you’ve been talking about

Paint that peeling door.

Just go for a relaxing walk

Sit and read a book

Cook that cake you wanted to

Give that film a look.

This is what my brain says

Day after day after day

But my soul just wants to sit here

And the world to go  away.

(c) Slumpless