Stop

Stop. I need to stop.

When my heart steals away in the night

Time travelling back to your hands in my hair

Stop.

I need to quench this thirst for memories

I am laden down with heavy baskets full of the past.

How can I move when every finger is weighed down?

I trudge through the days without you.

And I think I must have seen myself back then when you held me in the night.

I’m pretty sure it was me , sitting in corner looking sad.

Stop.

But how do I do it ?

Learn, when all I do is yearn ?

Smile without wincing?

Is there a potion made to numb ?

Now I understand gin.

You win.

I’m glass and always was and you’re the stone that landed in this vessel.

Tomorrow is another day..

Without you.

(C) Slumpless

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Parasite love

You spoke to the raw, ticking part of me.

The viscous blood that pools in this turbine head

You saw the graves I dig for myself

And you helped me shovel down

The rain in sheets upon our ravaged backs

As we fought the granite masses of the soil.

Toiling. Soiling. Spoiling.

You and I are boiling oil.

We spill over vestments and scorch the eyes that watch.

I cling to your immortal hold on me

Parasite love. Burrow in deep.

I go on forever.

(C) Slumpless

Cheap Cheap

You break the heart of me my love

Cut the soul right out of its skin.

Over. Over.And over

I let you do it it.

This pulsing part on a plate

Sloshed about like a cheap stew

Made cheaper by me.

While I yearn for your expensive smile

The one that only comes out at night.

Me ? My teeth are always on display

Night. Day. I just give it away

As if it means nothing.

Talk is cheap but so is a smile.

And mine is free.

(C) Slumpless

Cut From The Same Star

I will put holes in your clouds

And trenches in your doubt

Today you will see that I want nothing but you.

You can do as you please

I’m on my knees.

I told you it was forever

But most people don’t mean it my way.

There’s no highway. No wave goodbye.

I am the air you cannot see

The dust that settles lightly on your shoes

Use. Use. Used.

I’m used to it.

So run and push.

There’s nowhere for you to go.

I am sand and snow.

Tree, bird, mamal, fish

Do as you wish.

My love will not be killed

Even if my blood is spilled.

I don’t know jealousy

I don’t know hate.

This is what it means to be my soul

Mate.

So cry. Whimper. Laugh

You are half.

I am other.

Souls from the same Mother.

Cut from the same star.

(C)Slumpless

Kitchen

You undo all the things I’ve done

Where I put the kettle.

Where I left the salt.

You move me around like I’m made of nothing

And all I want to do is run.

I don’t think you would notice

Until breakfast time when the coffee doesn’t appear beside your bed.

You rearranged my kitchen.

And now I have nothing.

(C) Slumpless

When the air cools

When the air cools and you feel the pull

Of other fingers on your hair

When my soft whispers no longer lull you to sleep

And your warm stomach no longer nestles into my back

When all the things I thought were true

When you had me and I was new

All of those little loves.

Still scaffold the bones of me.

So please. Please. Please

Be kinder dear. Be kind.

You have hit fast forward

While I still rewind.

Be gentle on this fragile thing

Remember, you once made it sing

She might seem shiny and full of life

The potential to be a perfect wife

But I shone too… at the start

Before you stomped on my living heart.

(C) Slumpless

Swipe Left

I’m all misinformed and misaligned

These bones and thoughts just will not bind

This shell I’m in, just doesn’t go

With all the true things I know

My world is small because of my face

This misguided generation, this judging race

All they see are thinner lips

Uneven teeth … lumpy hips

What do they want ?

Are they insane?

To continue to ignore my wonderful brain !

Ok so it’s it’s not that amazing

I’m no Einstein

But give me a chance.

Give me time.

Don’t swipe left, give me a go

I’m amazing in bed for all you know.

Ok I’m not but you won’t find out

If you base your assessment on a glossy pout.

A sign that I care and am really me

Is that I’m not always taking a selfie

I’m out actually enjoying the fresh air

Instead of wondering about my hair.

So yes, the looks are what draw you in

But in a month your eyes will look within

So skip to me, I’m worth a shot

I promise I’ll give you all I got

(C) Slumpless