Speak To Me

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What are you trying to tell me, universe?

Please speak to me. Make me see.

Just as I think the last drop of him is gone

I’m wrong.

Again.

Just as I pat myself on the back and guzzle down a drink of happiness

He appears.

Then all my certainty is gone again.

All the things I promised …

Well they just go.

What does he see I wonder?

Nothing.

I’m nothing.

To him.

But if he could look inside.

He would see the the swirling galaxies of my soul

And he would know that there are depths to me

That he chooses to ignore

Chose to shut me out.

But I know enough to try and learn

That from this yearn this never ending burn

There’s something to be gained

I’m being trained

By powers greater than me

And definitely bigger than him.

So I suppose next time he crosses my path

Next time he passes me by.

I won’t just ask why?

But how? And why now?

Maybe then.  Just maybe

It will all make sense.

Maybe.

(c) Slumpless

 

 

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Beans talk

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Everything I did was for you, because of you

With you in mind.

Because of the possibility you might  be kind.

Might want me again.

And I couldn’t sit still, couldn’t read without your heavy head on my shoulder

And I fought this terrible love

This one-sided thing

While you swayed and danced in the breeze

I was  under heavy soil. Out of sun.

But those tears I shed found their way back in

and cracked my sad shell.

And now I am beanstalk and my head is in the clouds

And you are the old cow sold for magic beans.

(c) Slumpless

Citrus Light

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Can I be a warm balmy evening?

Can I be fresh citrus light?

Can I coat you in apple blossoms

Taste your cherry flavored gum

Just for fun?

Can I breathe out desire and soak in stress

Make life seem less…. just less.

Can my soft skin tip yours so that goosebumps hold you close

Can I be the mosquito that sucks your blood

Both annoying and good

Scratch. Scratch me.

Let me in

Under your skin

All over your mouth.

Let me linger on your fingers

Loll on your nose

In quiet repose.

I can be in all of your senses

All of your dreams

Just wish it so. Wish it true.

So I can be all of those things for you.

(c) Slumpless

 

 

Moral Low Ground

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And I’m mostly good ..mostly kind

But with you and because of you

I have dabbled in bold

Submerged my clean slate in mud

Oh but for those moments of bliss and shakes

Will I spend eternity with the snakes?

And if  I believe in God will She forgive me?

Why should She though?

I knew it was wrong.

But She gave me these earthly wants

I mean She pushed us together didn’t She?

And who did we really harm?

Is that the point?

Better the devil you know

But she doesn’t know.

She doesn’t know.

I do.

(c) Slumpless

Havoc

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We cling to each other like limpets 

As wretched storms howl above

Hurling light back and forth 

Havoc outside our beautiful bliss.

Angry seas won't take you from me
Nor greedy fingers searching for salty mouthfuls
Your softness is mine tonight
Your ebb and flow 
The angry mass can come and go

But now the winds have calmed

And gull cries can be heard again

The floating remnants of unfortunate wrecks

Will keep us buoyant 

And though we may feel a chill

All around us the water is still.

(c) Slumpless

 

Obliterate

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Suddenly your face was the face

Your eyes were the eyes

The skies

The heavens.

And once more I am obliterated

And all my pieces are scattered in the wind.

(c) Slumpless

You can’t live like that

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I will shatter those goblins for you my dear

And blow the monsters out from underneath your bed.

The shadow that lurks in your cupboard will be no more.

Nor the ghost behind your door.

I will turn on the light.

All of these fears, I will put right.

So my darling no need to quake

I shall stay wide awake.

For those beasts you should fear the most

Are not ghoul nor witch nor demon nor ghost

They live amongst us spreading fear

Taking those that we hold dear.

‘I can’t live like that?’ You say

Allowing terror to lead the way?

Well you are brave. Much braver than I

I really,really don’t wish to die.

Nor my child or husband friend or foe

I don’t want any of them to go.

While malicious souls walk the streets

I won’t feel any lasting peace.

I will avoid areas that are most at danger

Avoid talking to dodgy strangers

I will feel paranoid on the bus

That one of them is one of us.

So tell me to be brave. Tell me I’m absurd

It’s what I told others when it was the other side of the world.

I can’t live like that?

I think I can.

I’ll hide indoors. I’ll make a plan.

The world is in danger.

There is a war.

Just for a change

It’s on our front door.

(c) Slumpless